We have some shrinkage....

Apologies that it has been a while since I posted here. Wanted to wait until after I saw the oncologist which happened just yesterday.....

So shrinkage..... but for once it is a good thing ;) Several of the tumors in my liver have shrunk a bit. Nothing major but any time these things shrink its a pretty big deal. Its not common for them to do this with just being on the Lanreotide shot and having my primary removed. Doc says I need to just keep doing what I have been doing..... I have been working out like a complete animal and cold plunging almost every other day for a while now. Cold plunge has a ton of positive benefits and some focused ones on the liver. I am not saying this is what did anything but its become kind of an obsession. Who knew making yourself so uncomfortable could feel so good? Well....I did..... tattoos are similar but without any real health benefits lol. So how do i feel? .......... This is a win for sure. I am happy and know how lucky I am that there was no growth and that nothing got worse.... F'n amazing.... I am seriously trying to focus on these facts and less on the fact that I am still living with a metric fuck ton of tumors inside me. Tumors that at some point might decide they have had enough of my shit lol. Its certainly a mind game.... I have been also struggling a bit with not being able to have any other scans for a while (CT, PET, Dototate) but the doc basically told me its just not worth it.....(been on a no radiation fly list for a while) If liver tumors are shrinking its very unlikely that anything anywhere else is growing or getting worse.... She is even suggesting we can go more than 4 months between liver MRI scans now (i will prob push her to keep it the same for dayna and my mental health lol).

Butt Dart (lanreotide)..... Lets talk about the butt dart for a min (to which i must state that Dayna has been amazing at this and I know how anxious it makes her..... she fucking kills it and makes it so I dont need to become a yogi so I can jab my own ass. ). The side affects of this shot are annoying AF... They really wreak havoc on my guts.... but its obviously doing something good here. The other things that has been affecting me is my Serotonin levels. Once I started on the shot I was able to see how badly my increased serotonin was. Without and when I get into the 3rd week of my cycle I can really feel the levels start creeping back up. I get flushed again, super short fused and just want to kill things for no reason lol. Im kind of glad that this happened because I have an excuse, at least somewhat, for being such an asshole..... its not my fault you see ;) The Doc can change the shot to every 3 weeks vs every 28 days to help with this.....but........or should I say BUTT....... I will prob never leave the bathroom..... Stupid life saving, tumor growth stopping, gut tearing needle of life..... I love and hate you...... more to come on this..... want to do one more dose and see how my belly is.

In general life has been really good.... Working, traveling, concerts, more tattoos......even rode a motorcycle in Aruba for a day.....Yes you heard correctly...... NO Dayna did not kill me..... YES....she prob lost more hair ;) I'm working out like a crazy person..... running a mile in 8.5 minutes and determined to be in the best shape of my life whilst having incurable fuck face cancer. Hoping I can keep it up. As always, thank you all for the love, support, etc. Your guys rock! I will try to be better about keeping things up to date but you can assume if you dont hear from me that things are going ok....... If anything turns and changes majorly D or I will let you all know. Dont stress....