Its almost cutting time......

Sorry it's been a while since I posted. Been trying to enjoy some life and forget about all this BS for a while....

Surgery is this Thursday and although I'm super anxious about it, I'm also really ready to get shit done. Have been on this annoying diet to avoid a bowel obstruction for long enough and really hoping this pain in my side that I've had for years is going to go away once they pull this demon out..... Also hoping there is a positive effect on the rest of my tumors and symptoms.

Will be in the hospital (MSK NYC) just a few days (hoping no more than 2 or 3) and then back home to recover..... My head is telling me that this surgery will be a cake walk compared to the spine and shoulder BS I went through in 2022/23. Gonna keep telling myself this and maybe it will be true. I feel like when bones and nerves are involved it's just worse.... taking out a couple of organs....meh....f that noise.... bring it on. My insurance company decided the were not going to approve the docs removing my gallbladder just because my treatment is likely going to cause gall stones/problems. They would rather pay for the emergent treatment down the line SMH. Maybe they will find "something" during the procedure and need to just take it out. Here's to hoping..... It's an easy, non-invasive procedure down the road if not, so trying not to get too pissed off about it. Will be having scans frequently to check liver tumor growth so they should see if anything start happening in the gallbladder. So this week it will be.....

• terminal ileum primary removal

• bowel resection including lymph nodes

• appendix out

• possible mesentery/peritoneum NET removal

• More liver biopsies / possibly remove low hanging fruit.

• Gallbladder stays put - Fuck you Horizon.

Scan and treat next few months so see how liver reacts.... If all things stable, start planning to attack the liver tumors. Will keep you all posted post op. If I can't post I'm sure Dayna will post something. Continued thanks to all of you for the messages, calls, posts etc. It really does mean a lot to both of us. See you all soon with less organs and skinnier ;) I guess maybe there will be a good bi product of all this lol. I could stand to loose a few and get in better shape.... wonder how much my intestines weigh? hmm....